me

today at drop off i made my way into luke's classroom.  he usually prefers to walk himself in, but i decided to take a peek after bringing logan to his class.

immediately i was surrounded by cute little girls smiling and giggling with lily.  girls, so very different then boys.  then one little girl asked me why one of my eyes was smaller then the other.  it has been so long since i have even thought about my accident or how it has effected me physically.  i simply told her that i was a in a real bad car accident and that is how my eye is now.  she nodded and i told her the good thing is that it does not hurt.  satisfied she went on to play with lily and landon.  then all the other little girls began telling me stories of grandma's who had eyes like mine, of daddy's having eye surgery, etc. etc.

this morning has left me reflecting on my feelings.  oddly enough with all the pain and tears surrounding that time of my life, it is not one that i would change.  it made me who i am today, and i like me, a lot. sure i wish i had perfect eyes and a perfect smile.  sometimes i am a bit self conscious. but it is who i am.  everything happens for a reason.  i have learned so much and who knows how i would have been if my life events had been different.