these times

its been a busy few days here...

for luke and logan its been falling back into their back to school groove.  routines, i have a love/hate relationship with them.

landon has had a week of hanging with my friends and papa while i ran to and fro one appointment after another with lily.  and he has LOVED every minute.  thanks to you all for hanging with my little buddy.  yesterday at breakfast he asked who he was going to go visit for the day.  such a sweetie.

then lily.  oh my, this little girl has been through it all.  she has been looking paler and paler over the past few weeks.  her blood counts have been low.  low enough for a blood transfusion, but not low enough to absolutely require one.  so we, her doctors and i, had been waiting it out to see if she would improve to save her the transfusion.

on tuesday it was her regular chemo.  she was miserable so i got her in for a transfusion appointment on wednesday morning.  it took all day. we finished just in time to pick the boys up from school.  but lily was pink again and all smiles.  off we went to swim lessons.  as soon as i got all the boys situated and into the pool, i picked up lily and she was burning up.  i took her temperature, 102.5. i called the doctor and they wanted her to the emergency room lickety-split.

so. three boys in the pool.  sick baby girl.  husband out of town.  amazingly enough, i just kept calm and thought to myself, this will all work out.  somehow.  well, i am one lucky mama.  my sitter came through on a moments notice, even though she has another job (and school, and a life) and saved the day.  because of her, i was able to bring them all back home for a normal nightly routine and be off to the er with baby girl.

they talked about admitting lily, then after much persuasion on my behalf, decided a one time dose of antibiotics and follow up in the morning was sufficient.  she slept well.  is now feeling much better.  i think it was a respiratory infection, not a reaction from the blood transfusion.

that has been our week in a nut shell.  whew...... i do not know what i would do without all you wonderful people by my side.

spring break

tucson was as far as we ventured.  but it was fun filled with water slides, hiking, cave exploring, smores, and much much more....

three already

this little babe turned 3 yesterday. the moment was much more emotional for me then i expected. upon waking i wished him a happy birthday and he told me he did not want to be three, no reason, just something about the number 3. he is however so excited for his big party on sunday. he has been sharing all the details with me about how his big day is going to go.  i hope to exceed his party expectations. he is the third boy, on his third birthday.  it's finally his turn, not his brothers.

my little landon...

: i love your determination, that scrunched up eye brow look you give me when you do not agree with what i say

: it warms my heart when you reach out your hand and mine

: i will never forget the way you twist the end of your blanket around your fingers and bring it to your nose.

: and that paci.  the paci.  i guess i should worry more about that, but i do not see any 20 year olds walking around with paci's so we should be okay

: you are always the first one up in the morning, i love hearing the pitter patter of your little feet across the floor and your sweet voice.

: and so much more..... i love you.

grandma

happy 90th birthday grandma. you are so loved.